Saturday, August 29, 2009

worthless voice

this is a late night out of the mind composition and bears some resemblance to reality..but thats life..sometimes one cannot find words eloquent enough to describe its glories, and sometimes normal unexceptional words can express how at times life simply sucks. i dedicate this to all the losers out there..all rise for the greatest losers!

trying hard to feel
i feel numb to love
begging for approval
i seek blessings from above.
but God just laughs at me
tells me he's not a saint
he's just an artist
our destinies he paints.
i turn to my angel
"please help me feel"
she says i'll never be able
to know love for real.
i think its alright
i got better plans anyway
i need to please my papa
by being a superstar everyday.
but then God the painter
summoned angel the player
they started playing tic-tac-toe
over my dares and cares.
everything i care for
they marked with a zero
everytime i dare to
they cross me from being a hero.
dad sees me fail
it shames him to know me
mom knows i'm fine
but in her eyes i see worry.
with no one to turn to
i lie alone in the night
emotions burst out in tears
failed ambitions i try to fight.
smothered, failed and imprisoned
three words desribe my existense
trying to follow all the rules
slowly fades my insignificant presence.
i keep getting up every new day
even after i fall from grace
i play the player and pose for the painter
with smile on my shameless face.
and at night when they win
i cry myself numb and cold
their pawn i am i'm told.
the story of my life is simple
a sad soul in silent noise
on burnt pages of fate
i script my worthless voice.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009


her eyes glittering, she stands
on the corpse of her past
dripping in satisfaction
the small regrets wont last.

a murderer she rose today
daughter of the night
friends she has none
enemies she kills with pride.

once she was beautiful
now she looks like stone
deep scars engrave her heart
she fights her life alone.

her hands red with blood
she smothers the child inside
betrayel wont be possible
when there's no one by her side.

aroma of death she embraces
destroying other's lives
forever her carnival carries on
as the murderer in shadows, she strives..

Friday, August 7, 2009

frozen girl

she sits frozen in the day
not even the sun can melt her down
the fortress of solitude
she screams inside without a sound.

she looks up at the sky
tears wetting her cheeks
feeling robbed without her wings
being numb for so long weeks.

she wont let anyone
hold her and make her warm
emotions hurt a lot
breaking her heart every dawn.

she tries to smile but fails
breaking her soul in pieces
she collects herself to move on
all the struggles never eases.

before she heads out for another day
she takes a look at herself
frozen girl in the mirror
she wants to cry out for help.

no one hears her cry out
in the world where she breathes
not even the sun can make her warm
alone with herself she lives.